Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Saturday, September 17, 2011

More thoughts re: Autobiography

Recently, I posted a "power sentence for each year" of my life. As I continue to reflect and deliberate this topic (for some reason, I can't let it go!), I've realized that there are many elements of my life that were inadequately captured. Although I may have said a lot, I feel like I revealed only a little.

What does a "Power Sentence for each year of your life" not capture as an autobiography? Just a few of the things that come to mind: Relationships and Ideals and Emotions and Growth

From sentence to sentence, my focus was somewhat directed to "what" as opposed to who and how and why. Thus, the essence of who I am - my personality and values - were more "flat" than I would have preferred.

Here are a few examples and additional tidbits that hopefully add a little more insight:
I was never innately a leader. Although I would join in various activities (at the prompting of friends and family), it took a long time for me to have the confidence to reach out - and to initiate anything! For example - if it weren't for Tracy (elementary school) and Jamie (middle and high school) and Rachel (college), I would likely not have been as active in the various church families and youth groups that nurtured me from about age 6 to 21.

Through my church involvement, I learned to love the sense of community. I also built up courage and confidence to be able to outreach, even to do things as small as inviting others over for dinner. Perhaps that sounds odd - but the courage and confidence definitely did not come easily to me through college! Although I no longer have a church family/community I consider "home" - the spirtuality and sense of fellowship and community that church-life taught me continues to have a significant role in who I am today. In Austin, "family" was the many close friends who followed a similar migration path from Kansas to Texas. In North Carolina, I continue to build my network - - but it has begun to include several friends and fellow parents.

From my autobiography "in brief," you probably could not determine that although I am not very political, there are a few political topics where I have strong opinions... such as gay marriage and abortion and free will. I'm an advocate of individuals being able to make their own decisions (choices), and of all individuals being able to enjoy the benefits, rewards and consequences of those decisions.

I hope my regular blog readers (and those who know me outside my blog) see me as a positive person... but a "power sentence for every year" certainly doesn't capture that as one of my values. I believe you choose your attitude.

Certainly, from the sentences and tidbits posted, nobody would ascertain the fact that I cry. Sometimes a lot. In some situations, I have a (much!) more difficult time than the average person - for example, doctor visits, performance reviews, and even talking to Kiddo's daycare teachers! Although even I realize that it is totally senseless, I accept that it is a part of who I am.

Plenty of big/significant events didn't make the Autobiography! For example, my 30th birthday party consisted of a Pantless Weenie Roast. It was awesome - hot dogs and togas and bath robes (but no pants!).

I'm also a big nerd. My DH received a "billion second" party when he turned 1 billion seconds old - complete with a gift of one-billion grains of sand!

Many of my most significant relationships - My mother, my ex-husband, my current husband - received barely a mention (if at all). Even in a short blog post such as this one, I feel no matter what I could muster in a short time period would never be nearly enough to capture how these people have significantly influenced my life. Not to mention the many friends who have meant so much to me!

So perhaps the next post will be a bit lighter, and not as reflective. Who knows... maybe my autobiography will one be published as selected blog posts made over the years, including the light stories and tidbits of what happens during the in-between!

Love: My DH - for allowing me the time I need to refresh and replenish!
Hope: The rest of the day is as relaxing as the early part was productive!
Do: Crack open a book...
Number: 5 - for the number of tea samples I had today - DELICIOUS!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Autobiography - in brief

Blogger Challenge: Write a "Power Sentence" for each year of your life.

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1977 - I guess this isn't Samuel Richard after all - we'll name her Rebecca Rachelle!
1978 - A beginning to the love-affair with teddy bears: a first bear named Jenny.
1979 - I'll always remember my "right" - now that I have a third degree popcorn-oil burn on my right arm!
1980 - Finally, a Samuel Richard - also known as my little brother!
1981 - As the Counselors compared slit-wrist scars and other suicide attempt stories at Campfire Camp, I learned about suicide.

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1982 - Mrs. Richardson taught us all kindergarten - from my dad to my sister, me, and later my brother; however, I was only in the class part of the year as I went to Lake Stickney Elementary in Seattle for a few months (or was it weeks?).
1983 - Who knew Girl Scout Camp Little House, complete with giant's bathtub, witch's castle, and fairy bridge in the Magic Forest, was so much fun?!
1984 - When even grades, like "playground wars" with my friend Kristy in second grade, begin to include some sort of "fight" (more like argument or disagreement in retrospect).
1985 - One of my most easily forgotten years, but also my first overnight camp with Girl Scouts.
1986 - I walked to school with a temperature of 102 - because I didn't want to miss music class!
1987 - And so begins accelerated math (and my first and only drag of a cigarette- yuck!).
1988 - In my last year of elementary school, I played a cello duet with my teacher (who happened to play cello for the Wichita symphony.)

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1989 - My first locker (next to Shontae), my first "study hall" class, and my first year at Curtis middle school.
1990 - A high school teacher, in his last year of retirement, pulled me aside one day and wrote the word "Actuary" on a piece of paper; Although still in middle school, I walked to high school for Geometry class and got my only "B" on my high school transcript.
1991 - The Seago's created their own BBS (Bulletin Board System)- appropriately named, "The Asylum".
1992 - After a first "date" on a tennis court, my first serious relationship began.
1993 - I travelled alone to Boulder, Colorado for a Girl Scout Wider Op in this year - and also got mono and was admitted into the hospital literally hours after my favorite grandmother passed away.
1994 - Connections are good for jobs- my first "real" job was at KU Med School, working for an AIDS research doctor; Not to be over-shadowed by a very memorable trip to New York with my father, where I found the perfect dress for senior prom!

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1995 - Some years are truly life changing - after graduating from high school, I moved to Des Moines, Iowa to major in Actuarial Science at Drake University - and to be coxswain for the crew team!
1996 - One actuarial exam down - - not yet counting the ones left to go!
1997 - Principal Financial Group Scholar meant not only half-tuition and room & board scholarship, but also an Actuarial internship (and retiring from the crew team)!
1998 - Another internship for the summer - this one in St Louis - and completion of college with two degrees by December!

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1999 - Another pivotal year began with working in the Girl Scout Office, getting married, moving to Texas, and working for Governor Bush at the Texas Department of Insurance!
2000 - We bought a house!
2001 - Two acquisitions that would endure: a new puppy, Kobe, plus my new Camry!
2002 - A phone call and a quick search led to a new job at Texas Mutual!
2003 - Months of training in both obedience and agility led Kobe and I to begin the Agility Show Circuit!
2004 - Another year of more-of-the-same, with some travel including Big Bend and Vegas.
2005 - A 30th birthday surprise for my husband-- a trip to Coloardo for primitive camping including horse packing, rafting, a shovel for a toilet and a snow bank for a cooler!

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2006 - A year of change: a divorce, an actuarial designation (Associate of Casualty Actuarial Society), and travelling solo to Boston and San Francisco!
2007 - Completion of my "divorce recovery program" - including running in my first Marathon and travelling abroad for the first time to London and Paris!
2008 - The ending of my autobiography previously titled "My Life Up and Down I-35" with a move to North Carolina with my soon-to-be-husband!

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2009 - Another year of major changes - my father passed away, Kobe had back surgery, we bought a house, and the long-anticipated birth of my first kiddo!
2010 - Motherhood begins in full force, and I learn that even if skiing is something I should "theoretically" like, it is definitely not for me!
2011 - More travel and anticipation of our 2nd kiddo!

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Love: LIFE! Family. Travel.
Hope: Many more years are one day added to the above!
Do: One day - turn a few "power sentences" into a complete book!
Number: 34 - for the number of years for which I am grateful in my life thus far.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Preview to Autobiography...

My dream is to one day publish an auto-biography. For most of my life, the "planned" title has been "My Life Up and Down I-35". After growing up in Wichita, Kansas and going to school in Des Moines, Iowa and then moving to Austin, Texas - that seemed quite suiting! However, now that I'm closing in on age 35 - and no longer live close to I-35 - the name is no longer appropriate.

I subscribe to a "blog-a-day" inspiration post, and one day they suggested this: Write a power sentence for every year of your life. Wow. That isn't a post (for me, anyhow) that can be done quickly. It is definitely something that takes some time to think through - just to narrow down the events and when they occurred! The topic, however, suits me. It's a way to do a mini-autobiography, and reflect on life - which is something I try to do from time to time.

It also generated some great discussion - - for example, DH suggested that a reflection on life is more about "chunks" of years than a year-by-year view. There are obvious chunks - (his, in brief, were before school, elementary school, high school, college, new job years, wife years, and now he is in the kid-years chunk). His idea makes lots of sense- especially when you consider that most of a life - particularly through your 30s or so (and possibly longer, if I live to tell the tale) is very "chunk"able. Truth be told, as I'm trying to come up with something for each year, it's much more difficult than I expected. In fact - I feel like perhaps I was missing from some years of my life evidenced by the fact that I can't come up with a single sentence or event that captures the year.

As I thought about this at length, off and on over the course of a week or so, I began filling in the blanks and realizing that my memory, already, is fuzzy. For many events (high school and college graduation, wedding, birth of child, etc)- the date is a definitive year. For other events (travelling, studying for actuarial exams, dog shows, etc) they may span many years and not quite be captured, or the years are not quite as significant as the physical location.

As with any reflection, it did quickly become clear to me that travel and family are both among my priorities in life, and I thankfully have the means with which to do both. However, I admit that I worry, and I'm not sure how much two kids in daycare will require cutting of the travel budget; but for a few short years, I'm sure we'll manage!

I really do hope that an autobiography one day emerges from within. In the meantime, with tomorrow's post, you will hopefully have a glimpse into the highlights of my life.

Love: Writing - somehow it makes me at peace. Who would have thought a math major would love writing?
Hope: You enjoy tomorrow's post!
Do: Finish it up and "schedule" it - I love that you can do that in this electronic age!
Number: 11 - For the number of days between the "power sentence" post tomorrow and the original "suggestion"!

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

What's in your Closet?

Not to be confused with, "What's in your wallet?"...

This Labor Day weekend, we did plenty of laboring (mixed in with some playing, too, of course!). We tackled our biggest closet: the one in the game room.

We had 2 or 3 old DVD players and CD players. A couple extra keyboards, a box of cables, and 3 shelves of games (which we mostly consolidated to two shelves). We had boxes that had not been opened or gone through since around 2006, including post cards, ribbons, crafting supplies, old gifts, and all kinds of craziness.

Now, when I suggest we went through the closet, that isn't to say, necessarily, that the project is complete. There is still a tote (plus an overflowing box) of crafting supplies that I didn't exactly "organize." I also went ahead and stored my 'bin' with lots of spare paper that will probably never get used - which probably should be cleaned out instead.

However, as part of the process, there were several "jewels" found among the mess.

For example:
Pictures and letters from numerous pen pals - my aunt, a boy named Aaron who was an avid biker, a girl in Norway named Elisabeth, and a girl from Massachusetts who taught me how to say Lake Chagogagogmanchogagogchugungabungamog - and yes, I still remember the pronunciation (even though my spelling is probably off), as well as the translation - I fish on my side, you fish on your side, and nobody fishes in the middle!

Kiddo's favorite (probably after the dog show ribbon collection) was the basket of New Orleans beads.

A bag full of goodies (ticket stubs, brochures, maps, etc) from our trip to London and New York and Paris.

A collection of wallet-sized photos collected in high school.

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Although I'm sure there is plenty more cleaning and organizing to be done, I am happy that - for the most part - the closet looks a little less junky (even if it does look more stuffed!)

Love: Clean closets
Hope: It stays that way for a while!
Do: Get around to organizing the last bits and pieces.... eventually!
Number: 357 - for the number of post cards I found. Okay, so I might be making that up. I'd be happy to let you count them, though, if you need an "exact" number for today!

Monday, September 5, 2011

Chocolate

Yep, another post about one of my favorite things: Chocolate.

The baby still doesn't agree with me eating the quantities of chocolate I prefer. Instead, I seem to be consuming more milk products. I made 5 creme brulee's the other night, and I ate 4 of the five. I can be very stingy with my creme brulee! My DH got one (and - to be honest - I did share a couple bites of two of the ones I ate with my kiddo). But I digress. Back to chocolate.

I got an email about a "Will Run for Chocolate." How cool is that? The dates go into 2012 (luckily), so perhaps in December of 2012 I will be able to travel to run for chocolate. Combining three of my favorite things - running, chocolate, and travel. As my dad would aptly note - a trifecta!

Number: 34 - just because
Do: Finish an upcoming blog post on dates...
Hope: The quiet upstairs doesn't mean trouble!
Love: Days with nothing planned

Sunday, September 4, 2011

More dreams...

A coworker of mine (who has worked in the office for over 25 years) was pregnant a few nights ago.

Last night, I was in my first wreck (or so goes the dream..) in the new car. With a person who was trying to make the last flight of the evening to mexico. And when we left our vehicles to go around to the front of the swim center (I'm not sure why we did that), a red tubaca pacific hatchback (it's a kind of car in my dream) with no license plate left with all of the tires from the car I hit, and managed to get 3 of mine.

Maybe if I hadn't have been in bed by 8:15, I would have been up before I had a chance on last night's crazy dreams...

Is there an old wise tale about dreams and baby gender?

Do: Research on dreams and baby gender
Hope: an accident is not in my near future - particularly one that I can prevent!
Love: quiet mornings at my house.
Number: 7 - for the total number of tires the red hatchback made off with!

Friday, September 2, 2011

Bloggable Day...

It seems today has been one for inspiring blogs! I don't know where to start....

but hopefully, the end-result of the day is more than this "random thoughts" blog, but also a few additional blogs of substance - with topics to be announced. Maybe even later this weekend, if I'm feeling ambitious!

When I got home from work/daycare/haircut, I was miss chatty this afternoon! I'm not like that every day - or even often - but it seems today was one for telling DH about the people from Austin in the salon - and the preggers woman who was due 2 days after us!

Then, playing on facebook, I got to recall the beaver song. Even looked up a rendition or two on youtube! Something about a beaver moon. Maybe I should google that, also.

The haircut I got reminds me of a haircut I got when I was pregnant with Kiddo. Maybe it's my "pregnancy" haircut - if a girl can have such a thing. Bizarre that it turns out that way, I suppose!

Upstairs, it's the weekend for sorting through the game closet. Do we need two boggle games? Probably not. Should we keep the scrabble game that is missing a tile? We'll never play it! Of course - perhaps I should keep the spare tiles in my crafting supplies - I'm sure they would be fun for something in the future!

I pulled out the "Kobe" ribbon pile - and Kiddo had so much fun! The thing about dog shows - as all my agility friends will attest - is that you get plenty of ribbons! For some reason, I haven't parted with mine - yet. I think this weekend, after Kiddo's had his fun, they will make the "trash" pile. Lots of other stuff to clean out from that closet this weekend. Let's do hope we make progress!

And in other exciting news... and only thanks to DH's help... I won a million dollars! In a facebook game, anyway. I'm not sure I'd want to risk (whatever I would have to risk - even if it is a $1 lottery ticket) to win a million dollars in real life. Sounds dumb, I suppose, but I guess that's how I roll.

I finished one of my favorite beverages today (white/peach honest tea), and the quote made it into my new email signature line!

That's the randomness that won't make it's own blog topic later this week (if I'm ambitious enough)... Hope you've enjoyed the insight into a crazy day in my life!

Love: Mindless thoughts and quotes that make their way into my blog.
Number: 6. Yesterday, I was wrong. I couldn't count correctly. My conscious requires that I admit that I used 6 stamps yesterday, and not 5 as I originally posted. (it was 5 that was used earlier in the week. Perhaps the next blog number will be 11 - for the total number of stamps. Amazing how you can milk something like this for an indefinite period of time..)
Do: Plug the computer back in before it shuts down on me!
Hope: My remaining thoughts of the day make their way into blogs soon!

Thursday, September 1, 2011

THUMP!

That's the sound you hear, right before the crying begins. That is - after Kiddo has climbed out of his crib!

Yes, a big-boy bed is on order. And for the record - it was actually on order three days or so before the inevitable happened.

The wierd part of kiddo going thump was that he did not want "mommy" comfort - he just wanted to lay back down in his bed. I guess it was after bedtime at that point - but he was definitely ready to get right back in the bed!

So now, the dilemma is whether we leave the rails up or down (so if he climbs again, he has less distance to fall). For the time being, it's anybody's guess. I'm just hoping the big boy bed is delivered before the next THUMP.

Love: a kid who likes his bed!
Hope: no more THUMPs - at least not the kind caused by climbing out of a crib!
Do: Get the pups outside and head to bed!
Number: 5 - the number of stamps I used today. (And coincidentally, the number I used earlier this week, also!)